This is torture!

Did you have a boyfriend in high school? I'm having a feeling today that I don't think I've had since high school. It's that "my boyfriend just told me 'we need to talk' but we can't talk for a few more days" feeling in my stomach. You don't know what's going to happen, what they're going to say...

So I'm feeling this about the Consulting Firm I'm hoping for a job with! My second interview on Tuesday went pretty well (from what I could tell!) They told me they'd let me know BY Friday. So me, I have this brilliant thought in my mind that "maybe they'll call today." Now I know they wont, but I can't get it off my mind. I have my phone sitting next to me, some scrap paper, and a pen so that the second my phone rings, I can run off to the conference room.

I want this job so badly. I know that I can fall back on going to school, but I'd really prefer the job. I'll be pretty let down if I don't get the job.. We'll just have to see!

So I'm a complete jumble of nerves. This day has been near torture! Just sitting here, wishing, hoping, WILLING my phone to ring. I don't know if they'll contact me via email or phone, and so every time I see my Inbox get a new email, my heart skips a beat. "Is it them?" Nope, Jeff again! hahahah!

I swear, this is worse than my interview! I don't get it. I guess it's just knowing that my future changes forever tomorrow. (or today if they call!)